It was
tough call to make, but I had to. I knew it, if not now, it will be never. I can
feel a peculiar strength in my guts.
Six Months Ago…
I broke up with him. Almost after 9 years of knowing each other, is over just in seconds. There was a strange mixed feeling. Something; like you have given up some prized possession of yours. At the same time feeling a burden off …a light headed me. I knew that this relationship is going nowhere. Both of our parents gearing up for an official announcement perhaps only escalated the obvious; “break up”.
When I broke the news to him, he was silent and didn’t say anything as if he had anticipated this moment way long back. The casualness and acceptance of the event made me uneasy. ‘What the hell’! Wasn’t he supposed to coax me to stay or at least ask what went wrong?
And then I think I saw a bit of sadness in his eyes, but before I could get a confirmation, it went blank again. Finally we broke up over a cup of coffee! No explanation and necessarily no expectation.
Present Day…
It’s 7 am
in the morning, new beginning, new city and a new job. I picked up every bit of
emotional strength required to face this day. I could not identify, is it the
excitement or anxiety of this “New” thing that is churning my stomach. Whatever,
it may be I still need to compose myself and face this new beginning. But am I
strong enough to blow away everything that I once knew as my existence, yet?
Ah!!! It’s
already half past eight…and why the heck is the door lock jammed? What I was
saying earlier about something new …crap!!!
To be
continued ….
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